It is so dark. I find myself wandering, lost, alone, trapped in the shadows of which there is no return. My only meals consist of the feet of mutated rodents, and what water I can squeeze from these wretched herbs. Their taste is bitter. Sometimes I think I feel a kick from a still-twitching heel. Everywhere I look they crawl, watching me, waiting for me to drop my guard, waiting for when it is their turn, for when their teeth will sink into my flesh and consume me in turn. Even the plants I see, they watch, they wait. That one had teeth, Nao save me! It hissed at me as I passed by!
I can barely remember when life was different, when it was sweetness that kissed my tongue and not this pungent earth. I remember the beauty of flowers, the active and busy towns, festivals, events and cheer. I remember people in all their forms, dressed fine and spending carefree hours in the town center. Happy. Oblivious to care and fear. Safe. I remember long conversations in their company. I remember when I soared in the skies above, so vast and blue. Free. I remember the sun…
Oh Neamhain, the sun . . .
I never knew this is how I would end. So many battles, close calls, and brushes with the reaper I have had. Glas Ghaibhleann, Pennar, Talvish, Balor…I can still see their faces, remember the fear beneath the mantle of death, yet then I was spared. Now, here I am, in the tomb of my own carving. Is this truly where it all ends? I miss the warmth, the light, the freedom…
Now, all I know is the darkness, my only friend here in this reserve. It is only ever dark here, trapped in eternal twilight. It has been so very long...
Beloved ones, will I ever see you again?
I'm sorry...I should have never come here. I'm so sorry...
-can anyone tell that grinding Magic Craft is starting to get to me yet?
No?
Okay then.
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I believe in you!
I mean, you're not wrong, but do I really wanna end up like Fergus down here?
I found I still have some of the Complete Skill Exp potions for a day, and about 10 2h-life potions left over from an earlier event that have made this a little less painful so far.
I don't have the money for skill seals and it would take me longer to save up for some at the merchant then it would to just keep grinding so XDD
Here my madness I embrace - I'm gonna die down here
It'll all be over in the morning. Don't be scared.
I admire his tenacity o.o''
This is literal madness
No whats madness is trying to get to dan 3.
Watching something while endlessly farming helps. Also have your red monkey out when you're gathering. Saves a lot of clicking.
Best of luck
And mastering it. XD
It will be ok
That right there is true ptsd. XD